There is a pain throbbing in my head with every word I say and every step I take. But far from wanting to be rid of it, I am hoping that it turns out to be brain infection and that i may die from it.
A teacher of mine once said to me, You always give me politically correct answers. To that I asked, What's wrong with that? She replied, Well, sometimes I don't want to hear politically correct answers. I want to hear you.
Being politically correct is tiring on the soul. As you encounter every situation, instead of responding you it, one hide his response, survey it, and instead come up with what should be done. Shit. Jews have this proverb: When everyone around you is crying, it's advisible not to laugh. When they are weeping, it's best not to laugh. But that's just not the way I do things.
But I realized that letting your feeling's show just isn't what people want sometimes. How would you feel if you pour out your soul for someone to listen to, yet they respond with 'you shouldn't be like that, it isn't right'? Becaus you have failed me when you do that. When I tell you all about my problems, you have betrayed me if you try to help me. All I need you to do is listen. When you tell me I shouldn't think like that, my soul is dying because you refuse to accept what I am. yes I can answer you with all politically correct answers. Yes I can say that something is wrong even though I think it's right. But remeber, everytime I do that I rip off a piece that makes me who I am. Everytime I do that I lose faith in that I am me.
"I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you"
Numb - Linkin Park
